I hate to read that brother but I completely get it. I have been in the same situation, just differently and later so has my little nephew and one of my best friends. Last August, I had my new whip for 20 days after sitting around for a few months passing up buying other cars after my Nissan sh1t the bed and wasn’t worth fixing. 20 days I had it before it was totaled. Like you, I was the “responsible” one so it was even harder for me in that aspect than if I was a regular fu#k up known for this type of sh1t. I don’t drink so it wasn’t alcohol but my sh1t happened because of Xanax. I wake up in a totaled car, broke my arm something serious, car flipped but I don’t remember none of it, probably for the best honestly. Somehow managed not to hit another car, didn’t hit a person, didn’t hit a mailbox, nothing. Idk how I pulled that off but I did. I had insurance and a license though and insurance took care of the car. So after months of physical therapy and got a new car, beginning of December last year, this fu#king old a$s man pulls out in front of me and fu#ks up my new car, totaled. Got the car Oct 8, dead by Dec 3. So then I finally get my new wheels February 10 and my dog dies the same day. Can’t fu#king win. fu#k life. My little nephew got his next whip the same day as I did, feb 10.. on March 10, his car is totaled. Same thing that happened to us. Then the end of the month, one of my best friends ends up in the same situation. Totals his car, doesn’t remember. We were all into xans so that’s the reason for ours but we ain’t hooked on them like that, we can do them and stop and do them so we were used to them. This isn’t like we just started doing it, for me to fully blame bars, I’d think these wrecks would’ve happened early on in our bar phase but they didn’t. I personally think I had some fentanyl the night of my accident because I broke my fu#king arm and I wasn’t jumping around screaming or nothing, I do remember just laying on the ground not wanting to believe what I’ve done and hoping it was a dream. But yeah man.. this is gonna haunt you for the rest of your life. Like you said, you could’ve killed someone and you cried like a bi#ch, I did too. And sometimes I still do just thinking how my life could’ve turned out on a night that I don’t even remember. I could be in jail for killing 3 people and not even remember doing it. That is the most haunting part to me. That sh1t changes you, or at least changed us. It definitely changed me. Being the “responsible” one and me personally, have prided myself on being a safe driver and both of those titles were stripped of me after that night. My perspective on a lot of sh1t changed after that night. I’m on the other end of it finally though my nephew and friend are still in their own hells, both of them uninjured by the way. Instead of focusing on what you’ve lost, focus on the good of your situation like you could have killed someone and didn’t, you could be paralyzed and aren’t, you could’ve broke your arm like me but didn’t. There’s always some good in the bad, just got to find it. Wishing you all the best brother, I know this situation too well now unfortunately and wouldn’t wish it on anyone.
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