I fell asleep at the wheel and almost killed myself Friday night...no license or insurance - page 9

definitely a wake up call moment, furthermore if hes considered the responsible one in his family, I'd hate to know what the others are like, i say that respectfully.

no, actually i'm not...you two guys are the narcissists, pretending to know my situation...but I know where this stems from and why ur going hard slapping everything lol...clown...ur one of the degenerates I mentioned in the first post.

U test Positive for AssBurgers , ya ret@rd

I just blacked out my self the other night. Thought I went to bed at one am.. looked at my phone log. I made about 20 calls up until 4am…. Don’t remember any of it.

Drinking is bad

So i went back and forth whether I should post this, because inevitably i'm gonna have degenerates, either now or later saying i should've died...u know, over difference of opinions on the internet...but hopefully it serves as a cautionary tale...apologies in advance for the length...but gotta vent somewhere. I've been ashamed to talk about it with my family in detail...haven't told friends...i'm the 'responsible' one...but they know when it comes to the drinks, i'm not.

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Pulled an all nighter on Thursday night for work...Friday comes, I finish up about 4pm...then went to the range, drank there...went to Applebees...drank there...then 2 places after that before the night was done...yes, I have a problem.

I don't get drunk at home for dolo, but when I go out, I love drinking while socializing and over the last 5 or 6 years, to say I've had SEVERAL signs that I should cut it out, would be an understatement (from like 5 lost cell phones, to getting robbed because i was drunk and lacking). Come from a family who loves their alcohol, but have no 'drunks'--all fully functional and successful...my mama was putting that sh1t in my baby formula (as they oft do in Jamaica), but i'm a grown man and bare 100% responsibility. I caught a DWI a few years ago and still don't have my license back...in the process of switching employers and don't have insurance--in fact I was on cloud 9 Friday because of how well I smashed my interviews and how productive I was in getting my job done earlier in the day.

Recently I've had even more signs and felt something bad was coming and told myself I'm not gonna have drinks while i'm driving anymore...I been getting away lucky...just over the last month...won't get into those details, but 4/5 different times have been lucky cops weren't around or I didn't hurt myself or anyone else...I've also been going through my personal spiritual breakthrough and saw signs of that too...real good signs, which further made me keep telling myself that I have to chill and the universe only gives u so many chances...good n1gga or not. So even more i'm like, yo...u gotta chill. As I was going to the range and I took a to go cup from my home, forgetting I said i'd never do that again, just the week before because of one of those 4/5 incidents...I looked to the sky, apologized to the universe...and went ahead with it anyway, which almost proved to be the start of my ending. Universe did not feel me, on that very conscious slight that I offended it with.

I leave hanging out with my sister and her man at the last spot at like 3 am...I guess I stayed till the end...don't remember honestly...only thing I remembered was going to mcdonalds because at this point I haven't eaten in 15 hrs and hadn't slept over 48 hrs...next thing I know, it's 7am Saturday...and I wake to see the airbag and the whip glued to the side of a parked school bus...I have no memory of what happened in the 4 hrs...can't tell if I slept in the whip at mcdonalds and started to drive again or even worse, been driving around BK for 3 hours, aimlessly and in a daze...

By the time the ambulance and cops get there and because this was hours after drinking, I had no alcohol on my breath...I told them about the all nighter...got a Black cop...cool brotha...gave me a summons...no dwi...but of course I'm gonna face the consequences for driving without a license...fu#ked up my sister's whip, as u can see...and amazingly...no, miraculously, walked away with not a single cut nor feel no pains...didn't have to go to the doctor's...and remember, no insurance. In the ambulance, when they were checking me, it finally hit me how bad this could be, and ain't gonna front, when I told them...'I could've hit a kid or killed someone'...I started crying like a bi#ch.

I've been reflecting all weekend about how lucky I was. Universe telling me it's now or never...and I don't want to make any promises, but I'm a strong-willed person, and for right now, I've given up the juice...it's been quite a ride...and I come home and it's all around me...almost all of my friends drink and that's where we'd meet up. It's gonna be hard...all inclusive vacations, gonna be hard...but I'm ready. I know it's not the alcohol that's the problem...it's drinking while driving...but nah, alcohol has caused other negative effects in my life and I been knew I was gonna stop and just stick to my weed, which was never a root cause to any problems I had, but I didn't think it would happen so 'soon' at 40...

The way it all played out, I'd be spitting in the face of the universe after I slapped it in the face...and it punched me back in the gut to check myself...I don't want it to knock me out next time...so I'm done...there are several bottles at my family's crib that i'm sitting at right now and I can't say i'm tempted...I look at them with disdain...I know that's natural right after the traumatic event and that feeling can wear off, but I believe I'll remain strong...I don't have control of my mind and decision making after a certain point of drinking...and it has been truly scary. This ain't me telling y'all to cut anything out...everyone knows their vices and how it affects them...it's just me finally learning my lesson and thankful for being alive, and not a facing manslaughter case right now...whole life would've been fu#ked in the blink of an eye...

I listened to this song (one of my favorites on the album), several times this weekend...and cried every single time, especially at the quoted part...so happy to be born again...

Came in to laugh 1 more time at this drunk a$s atheist

Boi u got so many fu#kin problems in yo life

AND U WONDER WHY

he had the nerve to say I'm "pretending to know my situation.."

like n1gga.. with that big a$s wall of text in the OP, we know a whole lot

Why are people propping this post?

No license and drinking and driving

Endangering innocent lives recklessly

This thread should be slapped to hell

Happy you can be here to post about it


Had to tho

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Happy you can be here to post about it

Had to tho

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