Bklynzfinest said
not angry at all about this post and i am angry at myself...i'll take all the kicks in the ass....I do want to point out though that I don't drink like that (in terms of frequency for what you're proposing)...I do think a professional would help, but I don't need assistance in not drinking...that part is easy for me...I will admit that this sounds like i'm minimizing the problem...trust me, I'm not...but I get why some of y'all think I drink a often or a lot based on my post. I need the professional help with listening to others who have been through those experiences....been the most helpful posts in this thread. My God has sent the biggest message it could to me...worth a million professionals.
If you think so but at one point in my life I was one of those professionals believe it or not. Not have I counselled people with alcohol and other drug issues but I have I also ran groups on them. This is why I'm "triggered" by this because I for the almost ten years of my life I have worked with people that have done some pretty f-up things while under the influence. Including men and woman who have not only killed innocent victims but also people who killed their own family, friends and even children behind what you just did.
Problematic drinking is not just how much you are drinking but it's also how you're drinking has effected your life and most importantly the community as a whole. Because a lot of people drink but a lot of those people do not crash their cars like this or have DWI's. If you are doing sh1t like this even if it is just once, then my friend you have a problem, that obviously you can not fix by yourself or else you would've already. Hence why I believe you need a professional to step. Truth be told you're going to see a professional one way or another, whether it's by you being proactive and seeking one out or by you being reactive and being ordered by the Court to see one, you will see a professional at some point. That is of course unless you don't k1ll yourself before you get the chance to see one.
Let me ask you a question? How many times before this crash and your past DWI conviction have you driven under the influence? I'll answer for you, a lot. How do I know? Because nothing ever happens suddenly. You will not wake up tomorrow to see a tree fully grown in the middle of your street. A seed has to be planted and watered over time for it to grow. Addiction works the same. You have been driving under the influence for awhile before you're first DWI and you were probably getting happy and confident because you were never caught.
I bet if the very first time you drank alcohol drove and crashed that would've (probably) had been the final time you ever did it. But because you "got away with it" you got happy. Well here's some truth for you, no ever gets away with anything sooner or later you will pay the piper, it's just a matter of when. This is why I'm talking to you like this. Now if and when (because I know you will) do this again and this time it goes worst for you (and it will) you can never say that you were never told. If you believe in God sending you a sign, then take a second to think out of everything i could be doing right now, why am I taking the time out to leave this long a$s message to you. Maybe just maybe God needs to hear it or maybe I'm just some rando dude on the internet talking sh1t. That can be true as well. Get help bruh before it's too late.