| 6 years ago||
To my dear beautiful daughter,
Iím writing you a letter, thatís right a good old fashion letter itís a lost art really, like handjobs.
I have a confession to make I didnít like you very much at first. You were just this annoying little blob, you smelled nice, most of the time. But, you didnít seem to have much interest in me, which I of course found vaguely insulting.
It was just you and your mom against the world, funny how some things never change.
So I cruised along doing my thing acting the fool, not really understanding how being a parent changes you. And I donít remember the exact moment everything changed, I just know that it did.
One minute I was impenetrable, nothing could touch me, the next my heart was somehow beating outside my chest exposed to the elements.
Loving you has been the most profound, intense, painful experience of my life, in fact its been almost too much to bear.
As your father I made a silent vow to protect you from the world, never realizing I was the one who would end up hurting you the most.
When I flash forward my heart breaks, mostly because I canít imagine you speaking to me with any sort of pride, how could you? Your father is a child in a manís body, he cares for nothing and everything at the same time. Noble in thought, weak in action, something has to change, something has to give.
Its getting dark, too dark to see.
that s**t had me teary eyed lol
sucks i checked those episodes tho now i gotta wait till like the end of jan to see ep 3